OK, it might sound to you a little selfish (because most of the times when I think about it, it sounds to me like it) but I have my reasons, and maybe you'll understand... Turns out that I am jealous when my big sister -- 19 year-old Laura-- comes to visit us. She lives in Colombia with her mom (she is a half-sister, we share the same Dad, but no the same mom), and sometimes she comes to Panama so that we could see each other and she could spent time with Dad. The problem is that when she comes I feel as if Dad's attitude changes, like when Laura is here it's like all his attention and enthusiasm is drawn to her, and so my dad starts to tell me things like "Isa, could you bring this to your sister" or "Isa, do this and that for you sister" and everything is for her, Laura Laura Laura and nothing for Isa. It's like hello! I'm your daughter as well pay attention to me as well... That's what I'm used to... I bet my little sister feels like this as well, but she is too busy playing creepy games with what she calls dolls. I get this really weird feeling inside me full of envy, I love Laura so much and I miss not living with her but sometimes it gets into my nerves that she does everything perfect and gets the prettiest things, shopping only for her just because she doesn't get to be with us always, and everything when she comes to visit. It's supposed to be a good time for everyone isn't it?
But then, it gets me thinking... It is still Dad's daughter and I know she loves her as much as he does with Sofia and me, so I'm guessing that he is leveling up things for her because she only comes to visit three times a year maximum, and she is not always with Dad as we are?
The reason why I wrote about this was because yesterday Dad was talking with her on the phone and he was all happy and exited asking her how was she doing and all that, they talked for a very long time. I know she misses her daughter, I mean, who wouldn't? Maybe I should stand in his shoes and see how he feels, and stop feeling so jealous when it comes to Laura, just because I love both of them.
Sibling rivalry is natural as long as it doesn't consume you. I understand how you feel.
ReplyDeletevery nice story I love it and it was funny: Hello i am your daughter to haha that was funny but kind of sad in a way
ReplyDeleteApart from a few spelling and grammar errors this is great! It must be kind of annoying being ignored from time to time. I like it a lot! Great Job!
ReplyDeleteThat was a great confession Isa!
ReplyDeleteI like how you showed the reader how jealous you were but at the end you tried to put yourself in your dad shoe to see how he must have felt. Fantasticccc!!
Keep it up :)
amazing confession loved the way you expressed your feelings
ReplyDeleteIsa i loved it :)! i feel the same way as you do when my two brothers come to Panama..
ReplyDeleteGreat story! Great description and inner thought, I could really feel what your saying, liked how you explained your reason of being "jelouse" of your sister, Laura.
ReplyDeleteGreat confession! I liked how you explained various reasons!
ReplyDeleteI bet my little sister feels like this as well, but she is too busy playing creepy games with what she calls dolls. <--- That part was so funny!