I go to the mall

because there is nothing else to do,
almost every week,
But today,
this Saturday,
it's not like any other day.
I put on my new outfit,
look at the mirror ten time more than usual,
put on my lip gloss, and
I'm half way out the door.
I feel nervous,
anxious,
stressed.
And I wonder
how it would be...
Entering the mall gives me chills,
my hands are cold
and shaky.
My heart is ready
to come out.
I take the stairs
and looking around to so much people
hoping to see him.
And I do.
My heart accelerates,
I suddenly feel like walking away,
but at the same time I don't.
I came here to be with him,
that's why I stay.
We walk around,
as we talk,
I look at him,
then he looks at me,
thousands of butterflies
fly in my stomach full of joy.
Can't help more than to smile, because I'm happy.
happier than usual.
Today,
and only today it was
different.